what the bloody hell is going on?

there's no direction in my life at the friggin moment -.- there are a million things i'd wna do but cant, and nt jus because i have to protect singapore "WITH MY LIFE!" the path ahead is jus about as clear as kopi-o, and imho im jus too screwed up to survive in this world, cuz its like 10X more screwed up and alot more crazy then i can ever imagine it to be. and the thing is, i dun even noe myself well enuff. as much as i wld like to change, i jus seem to be hentakaki-ing i.e. yuan2 di4 ta1 bu4 i.e. not makin any headway. i noe im alot more "fortunate" then my peers in other countries, but i seem to be failing in almost everything i want to achieve. like all my successes that could be of significance seem to be accidental shit that has no link whatsoever to my effort. -.- i dun expect my life to be plain-sailing. i wld like to think that i have low expectations. but i cant help it when i think about certain things i missed out on. sigh. u'd have thot that a person of my age wld have outgrown self-pitying, but well =/ when u have too much time on ur hands u're kinda in danger of doing this kind of thing. stupid life. but its so fun at the same time. cheeken. wads going onnnnnnn :(((((

oh yays, we had a bbq at my hse ytd, and it was great, i hope everybody had fun =) and my thanks to everybody who came. too bad so many ppl're overseas, or it wld probably have been a bigger gathering, but still,i suppose it was gd enough.

time really does fly -.- before we knew it, it was time to go! and before we know it, it's time to say goodbye! we've really ended now, haven't we...i mean, we really aren't going back to school any more...and gatherings like these are going to get fewer and fewer. all our happy memories are...well, happy memories, nothing more, nothing that can occur again no matter how much we wish for them to. and sad memories, hopefully, will become lessons learnt so we can grow:) our class really is awesome, and so many of us have our respective traits that will likely, and hopefully, make us successful individuals in the future. we are, most likely, going to change. all of us. i just hope, sincerely, that we all change for the better, and don't morph beyond recognition. this has been a really, really happy chapter of my life, and i hope it's been the same for the rest of you =)

shit....these few days i keep....emoing. like, emo over stuff i cant possibly do anything about. and after i watched Cape no. 7, i was extra emo, for some reason. i mean, now tt i tink abt it, the movie also not the very sad type.

i always tell myself tt things i emo over are likely things that aren't worth my time. but then, when im alone, i just bu zhi bu jue start emoing. and thinking about the same stuff all over again. oO is tt supposed to be normal? i have no idea. its like a chronic problem. oh and as a sidenote, i read that emotions shldn't be confused with episodic emotive dispositions. makes sense? didn't, and dosen't really make sense to me. but, if im not wrong, its basically saying that e.g. a joke made you laugh, yeah tt happiness is an emotion, but when u meet a close friend, that sense of "friendliness" or "warmness" apparently isnt an emotion. damn its confusing.

damn. errr sprained my ankle...again. -.- and wootz i have a cool music player with one cool song.

ok so we're down to the last...7 days b4 we go for our As. it's quite stressful, isn't it? well i noe for some of us we just dunt feel a sense of urgency when it comes to stuffs like that, but hey, u gotta start feeling fired up like, soon LOL "soon" the no. 1 word for procrastination.
i got really bored reading stuff. and holy shit man im getting dam distracted, yesterday i dug out RA, RA2, TS, Worms 2 =_____= sian tiberian sun cannot work, and i cant fix it. RA and RA2 i havent tried, but worms 2 works ^^ but SHIT LOL I SHLDNT BE DOING SUCH THINGS

hm i heard the my poor neighbour's daughter opposite screamin and shoutin jus now. not like i wanted to eavesdrop, i got my headphones on -.- but she was that loud, yea. anw she's really pissed abt her grades, cos she worked really hard and din do as well as she wanted to. ok this isn't abt her grades and how noob she is LOL please kaopei. no seriously, it's more like, i'm quite worried for some of us, and well ya for myself la duh. like, some of us may not get results as good as we deserve. which sucks. and not because we din work hard enough, more like because we're lazy -.- which is a shit reason. i mean we may end up regretting like, oh "Why din i start 2 weeks ago instead of 1 week ago" tt kinda bullocks. ya cos we wasted time doing things like this (blogging worthless thoughts)

=/ im sure most of us will do fine, just maybe not as gud as we may like. ya everyone has different standards, like e.g. 4A1B, ya tts lose for some ppl. but for me 4A1B is totally win alr -.- well good luck people, this is probably the most important WRITTEN exam we may ever take, so give it our best shot, dunt leave any regrets :D

lol tis is cool. i jus took this quiz and reallyreallyreallyREALLY gave my honest replies:

Which Sesame Street Character Are You?
	You are Oscar the Grouch. You can be gruff and often have a chip on your shoulder. Despite your intelligence, manners (and cleanliness) are of little importance to you. At the same time, you have a few very close friends who you allow to see a softer, kinder side of you.
Find Your Character @ BrainFall.com

LOL OSCAR ^^

hmm this is actually getting quite ridiculous. alright rich clubs have always dominated the league. but this is actually getting abit out of hand. now random rich dudes/coporations are taking over clubs in EPL, especially. so basically, random clubs like Man City start getting richer and richer, thanks to oil money or whatever the new owners make their moolah from. ok i suppose if they bring in cool players it could make the football nicer to watch. and i suppose this ushers in a new age in football. money talks, eh?

man city could actually hijack chelsea in their bid to sign robinho, and make bids to big clubs all over the continent for their star players. i mean, its turning more into a money league than a football league =/ i suppose breaking the "monopoly" of the big four could be a good thing, now instead of manyoo, assnal, chelski and the liverbirds, we could see man city possibly displacing one of these clubs.

and IF we ever do see more rich dudes taking over clubs in epl, what then, drives the desires of the players? passion for the game or passion for the riches the game brings? will the incentives make players forget things like respect, sportsmanship and the like? and ANYWAY, attracting the best talents may not exactly make you the biggest club. just look at real madrid and their age of the galaticos (zidane, figo, r. carlos, ronaldo, beckham, owen). no really, man city may not be going in the right direction, even if they do have the right money. the price of players will defo be inflated with the entry of rich owners like these, a situation that only serves to blur the value of the game to the fans, players, clubs and the like. =/

oh and anyway, a quote from one of my idols: "He can play on the left or the right, in a 4-4-2 or 4-3-3...or on the bench" - Mourinho, talking about his new acquisition quaresma. LOL

hehe i just saw a preview of our class montage. LOL its quite obvious i dun like to take photos, hardly got any of my photos inside. and ya i din take any solo photos anyway, 'cept for 1. but the photos DAM FUNNY LOL omg it was a dam imba compilation. almost all the totally bizarre things that happened/we did are there! lol! haha other ppl probably wunt understand =/ but dao! it was funny! holy shit tmr got prelims and im talking cock here. omg im still feeling quite high, quite a few of the pics jus make me laugh like humbai! we sure had good times together :)

gd luck for prelims everybody! ^^